blemishedrose

im gettin of devaint ill sign off this time an  not sign in again caus my stuff really sux and i could b doing more important intersting things like sleeping or watching paint dry so laterz

Escape I breathe in and out to the rhythmic waves that wash against the shore. I distantly hear a seagull cry, but I focus once again on my meditation…Breathe in…hold…breathe out…breathe in…hold…breathe out…breathe in.. "Look mummy, look!!! A birdy!!!!" A child's shrill voice startles me and I begrudgingly open my blurry eyes. A weary looking mother trudged by with a child in tow. She barely glanced in my direction but the child stopped, and stared openly in a way only a child can. She had brown tousled hair and sad eyes. She reminded me of myself as a child..but that was a long time ago. "ESMERELDA!!" her mother called, she then with one l

My prison I see it in the shadows it beckons me, and i turn away i dont want to see, what it has to show me but i cannot escape it it is always there watching and waiting.. waiting for its move... The sunlight is slowly filtering away and the dark is taking over I try to hold on to all that is true but it slips through my fingers im lost inside myself and i dont see the way out Im held in chains inside a prison that nobody else but me can see I silently wish i could be free'd but i push them away as i do it again..and again the face in the shadows grins at its own handiwork while i cry in fustration.. will i ever b

Shallow minded me Why am i so fickle it rips me apart I always seem to hurt people by doing things I cannot help doing I feel for them I really do I fuck up there lives but i cant help it Its not my fault i was born with the attention span of a five year old how can people be so decided so sure I dont know the meaning of the word loyal I want something, or someone I strive with all my might but when i get it i throw them away like a discarded toy Im such a user a hopeless attention seeker Thats what I am and always will be Ive tried to change but i cant I did warn you.... and im sorry..

Married in black Ever since I uttered the words \"im getting married in black\" I have been treated like an invalid. If they had their way I would be locked up in a white padded room. They cannot understand why I would want to break my mothers heart and disregard the tradition that has been respected by our family for many years. \"Shudder\" My older sisters wedding is still fresh in my mind…I could hardly see my sister underneath that horrible white fluffy thing some people might call a dress. She looked…like a walking, talking wedding cake, if only we could have eaten it, so it would have had some practicality. The dress has been handed

Trinity The sun filtered through the blinds, onto the bed I was lieing in. I enjoyed the moment, knowing it was wednesday and i had that day off. I was startled out of my revire by a large MIOW!this was unexpected since I didnt own a cat at the moment since Baraby died a couple of months ago. I sat up in bed looking around for the source of the sound, it was coming from the window..but that was imposible! my bedroom was on the second floor. But another distinct miow caused me to jump out of bed and roll up the blinds. And there it was a beautifull tabby, it had three stripes running form its eyes to its tail, which gave it a striking appera